Mon Vie

Words of Wisdom, from Buddha himself

2006-12-31T10:50:00.001-05:00

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

"Nothing ever exists entirely alone; everything is in relation to everything else."

"Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense."

"Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."

"Better than a thousand hollow words, is one word that brings peace."

"Every human being is the author of his own disease."

"In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true."

"It is a man's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways."

"We are what we think."

"Let us be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die. So, let us all be thankful."

"There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting."

"Work out your own salvation. Do not depend on others."

"Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared."

"Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it."

I hate you

2006-11-06T23:32:00.000-05:00

Peter is sad.

2006-06-23T23:52:00.000-04:00

I just came home from going to work, and then hanging out with a couple of friends to find out some very bad news. My dog died today. It's almost a good thing though. He was old. 16. We were gonna have to put him down if he didn't' get better. I'm just glad we didn't have to. But I'm gonna miss him. Too much for words. He was like one of the family. :'-( We've had him since I was around 7 years old. I want to cry, but I can't. It's like I've forgotten how, after all the years of holding it in.

All dogs go to heaven.

REALLY short story

2006-06-12T23:50:00.000-04:00

So, for my creative writing class, I had to write a short story. It's a lot shorter than I expected, but whatever. Here it is, I'm posting this before I even read it to my class. Let me know what you think.

Alice sat down in her favorite chair, breathing a sigh of relief. Everything went so well.
The table was set, the candles were lit, and Vivaldi was playing quietly in the background. Dinner was just about ready; London broil, mashed potatoes with roasted garlic and goat cheese, and steamed green beans; his favorite. She even went through the trouble of putting the wine into a decanter. It was a 1995 Cabernet Sauvignon, the one she had been saving for just such an occasion. That was the easy part.
Anxious for Mark to come home from work, Alice kept peering out the window. Just as she saw his car pulling up the drive-way, she untied her aprons strings and ran to the front door. As soon as he came in, she gave him a big hug and a kiss on the lips.
“What’s that for?” he asked bewildered.
“Oh, nothing. It’s just that I love you.” She replied. “Come into the dining room, I have something for you.”
Mark was in awe of the feast set before him. The smell of dinner cooked to perfection made his mouth water in anticipation. As they sat down and began to eat, he wondered why his wife went through all the trouble to make his favorite meal. He knew it wasn’t their anniversary; that was one thing he prided himself on, knowing all the important dates.
“Where’d you get this recipe for the London Broil? It’s perfect.”
"You should recognize it; it’s your mother’s. I called her today.”
“You called my mother?” Mark asked with a mouth half full of food. “But I thought you hated her.”
“Whatever gave you that impression?” Alice asked innocently.
“I dunno it just seems like you don’t get along with her.”
“Don’t be so ignorant Mark, it’s not becoming of you.”

Noticing the increased hostility, Mark decided to change the subject, “So, why’d you go through all the trouble of making such a wonderful dinner?”

“I just wanted to surprise you. You’ve been so busy at work lately, staying extra hours. Even going in on the weekends. I just thought you needed it. Anyways, I wanted to show my love for you.”
But the truth was she didn’t love him anymore. In fact, she was quite angry with him. The first time, when she found out what he did with his secretary, she forgave him. They were still young, still so naïve. Even the second time, when he said he was going on a business trip. She found out it was a lot more than just business. But this time, this time he had gone too far. Her sister. Her own sister. How could he go so low?
“Well, thank you. Thank you so much. It’s quite the pleasant surprise."
“No need to thank me,” said Alice putting on her best girlish charm, “it was nothing.”
Alice kept quiet most of the dinner. She was thinking about her sister. Her sister that was only 18 and just out of high-school. Her sister that was still so young, so innocent. Her only sister. Alice had looked out for her sister, ever since she was born. Being 10 years older, she felt obligated to. She had to. She had no other choice.
“Would you mind getting me seconds?” Mark asked bringing Alice back to reality.
“Not at all. I’d love to.” Alice couldn’t be more elated at that very moment.
The rest of dinner went off without a hitch. Mark loved the dinner, more so than she had expected. Being tired from a hard day at work, and an extravagant and unexpected dinner; Mark turned in and made it an early evening.
As Alice sat in her chair recalling the evening’s events, she knew she still had a lot of work to do. After all, the easy work was done. As she pocketed the empty vial of arsenic, Alice could not help but smile to herself. At last, her sister was safe from harm.

THUMP

2006-04-15T01:09:00.000-04:00

THUMP

THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
My heart beats,
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
It is a drum,
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
I hear it in my head,
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
I feel it in my chest.
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
Sometimes loud, sometimes quiet
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
The familiar bumping is within
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
I can not escape from it
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
The beating...
Beating...
Beating...
of my heart
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
As long as I breathe, the constant pulse
THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.
Will live on

Bitter Tears of Anguish

2006-03-08T23:59:00.000-05:00

I have no right to complain of my life
There are others with lives worst than my own
At this point in time I have no choice

I’m drowning in a turbulent sea of emotion
My eyes are shedding endless bitter tears
I’m overwhelmed with dismay

We’re all dealt a deck of cards in life
We get high cards and lows cards
We just have to know how to play the hands

My sight is obscured as they fill with tears
My vision for the future is muddled
These bitter tears blind me to no end

These bitter tears of anguish
They stream down my face
My emotion is still not released

I cry at night in hopes of relief
Relief from the troubles of the world
The bitter tears of anguish wet my pillow

When will the time of relief come
The time when I can laugh again
Laugh so hard I cry tears of contentment

These bitter tears of anguish
They show no remorse for me
They just show the world I am in pain

Email from Kylie

2006-03-08T00:22:00.000-05:00

So, I thought I'd post this über nice email I recieved from Kylie today. Here goes:

hey babe! So i'm online yay! but only for about 5 mins haha. anyway I just wanted to send you a quick hello and let you know i've been thinkin about you a lot lately and miss you more than i thought it would be possible to miss somsone.

im sorry you're going through a shitty time right now, i hope things will get better. I wish i had a shit load of money because i would fly to you and steal you away from work... id find a way, really i would. but yeah anyway. I love ya hun, you're an important part of my life and i hope you know that. You're an amazing person as well and i dont think you hear that enough, so believe me when i say it!

Well i have to go but i'll try and call you when i get to Washington, tomorrow i have an hr overlap so i'll try to call you then too. love ya tons and hope you're well!

Love your GF Always & Forever! hehe
Kylie

So, yeah, it made me happy to see that. Made me feel much better.